Friday, August 27, 2010

A Healing Ending

It's Friday. Tomorrow is Emily's birthday &, had she lived passed 18 months, she would have been 9.

I'm so busy at work that I really don't have time to think about it much. Perhaps that's WHY I stay busy? I don't like thinking about her passing...lots of guilt involved...I know, I have no reason to feel any guilt, but still, it's there. Tomorrow will be another visit to the cemetery after a morning at work & a run for flowers.

One thing I did do to make me feel good this week was finally get my new pair of boots! Long over due.

While I was there I could not resist getting my little guy his first pair too. When I got home with them I pulled them out, said "David, I got you some new cowboy boots!" his answer? What any smart 4 year old would say: "But I don't have a horse!".

Immediately after trying them on he said "Let's go outside & kick some dirt!" How could I resist? I grabbed my camera & we went out back. We tried & tried to take a decent shot of us together, but since I don't have a remote, I had to use the timer. Setting it up & getting in place with him in my lap in under ten seconds was tricky. His boots are a bit big still & they kept flying off his feet when I would grab him to get in place before the camera went off. We didn't get "the shot" but we sure got some laughs!

Like I've said before. He is my medicine.

3 comments:

sMacThoughts said...

You've gone through so much, Beth.... I shake my head. Prayers to you for this tough day. I LOVE the boots, and your son seems to, also; more, I bet once they stay on the feet!

Beth Crocker said...

Thanks Susan! He ran to put them on again when I got home today. He saw that I was wearing mine. Cute.

Angie Blom said...

oh what a day this must have been for you Beth.. she was a beautiful girl.. and oh I love your boots.. your little man looks so cute in his.. I have not worn a pair of boots like that in years.. man I miss it!!